Quite a long time I denied all the requests from my heart of writing a post in English, the reason can be quite simple. The failure on GRE directly abandoned me the American dream; what’s more, it deeply hurts my passion to my future life in years. In the past days, weeks and months, again and again, I have tried to imagine my life, a big house, a tenured position. But now, everything is gone. And, my purpose of learning this language has become invalid as well. Even till now, I don’t think the English can be useful for my graduate study in China, since most PhD candidates in the major of accounting are without good competence of foreign language, and such faults are also retained by most professors as well. in contrary, such competence may cause envy from colleague sometimes.
I can hardly remember when I devote myself to the study of this language. I admit that I never met the top level, since I never entered a top primary school, middle school, college, and the graduate school. But undoubtedly the American dream works. During the high school, I started to read some English newspapers, listening to the VOA News, and to chat with my English teachers and friends in English. Obviously such activities help me build a solid foundation, which is still beneficial today. (Just imagine how many students are still fighting for oral and listening sections).
The failure of the college entrance directly abandoned my improvement of English. The teachers for students of the technical school are that poor, that the memory of the English courses at that time is only the tricks, like the faults of the pronunciation, verbal and grammars from the teacher. And CET-4 and 6 are passed respectively, though the scores were not very high, but identical to my competence. Frankly, there is little improvement on my English during the four year study in college.
A great improvement of English competence comes to me when I entered the graduate school. For the research purpose, I have to read many papers from top journals written English. Obviously, good competence on reading formed since high school brings me great benefit. Even till today, I am still quite pride that very few graduate students around can take a faster speed than my reading. (A younger student used to acknowledge her greater amount of reading, while after some talking; it is found she only read the abstract and conclusion). And what’s more, the failure of GRE can not only mean failure, in fact, I learned how to write in a formal way. Without such training, I don’t think I can write an English paper and present in Hawaii.
Anyway, the GRE is failed, and my American dream is breaking down. With the concern of my willing to be a research, professor or so, PhD is an optimized choice still, since its honored acceptance here in China. I will fight for some top universities in China, no other school will be considered since its limitation on marketplace. I don’t want to be a loser when graduated in three or four years.
Thanks for my brother; it is your help and encouragement that bring me confidence and broadened horizon;
Thanks for my parents; it is your help and support on my feeding up that I have the opportunity to make these attempts, though they are not successful;
Thanks for my uncle and aunt; it is your kind suggestion that prevent me from making wrong decisions;
Thanks for my uncle Yang yang, to be specific; you give me too much, courage, confidence, horizon and the meaning of a human being;
And thanks for Mr. Zhou and Ms. Luo; it is your encouragement during my early stages that I can obtain all these capabilities;
As a final, thanks for Peng and my present professor, though we have only a connection for less than three years, your determination and encouragement help I learn to be a rookie researcher. I am convinced what you taught me can be beneficial when doing independent research in future.
作为转型经济的一个特例,我们伟大的天朝,则是更是发扬了这种曲折不挠的精神。基于人民是XX主人的原则,研究生们也就理所当然的成了学校和自己的主人。在亚洲其他地区的那种高额奖学金加补助来招纳Push对象的资本主义策略是我们所不耻的。更多的,我们是自觉的新新人类。我们自己支付自己的学费,然后感激涕淋的领到了10%的回扣,我们享受着1.3-1.5倍的平均物价和房租,享受着农民工般的待遇。更有甚者,著名的投入产出模型在此也失去了诺贝尔奖的光辉,因为这个模型实在无法解释在产出几乎为0的情况下,却有着高额货币资本和劳动力资本的双重投入。此种状况,想必凯恩斯教授从坟墓里爬出来都没法解释啊。算了,还是去求脚下马克思教授和恩格斯专家吧,或许资本论的第四卷题目可以是:Higher Education in Socialism: Asymmetric Role on Input and Output
My blog got crashed for the whole day yesterday when I tried to update the wordpress into the new version of 2.8.6, which was released that day. The detailed reason that can explain why this happen is still unknown yet. Though my blog is now working again, I suppose it necessary to write it down with pieces of words.
The problem that I come across is that when i am updating the new files from the local disk to the server, and the old files are overwritten, the connection was rejected by the server with the message saying ‘I can’t accept more than 2 connections”.Then the result seems to be more serious than expected, perhaps it is the difference on the versions of the system, that the system got crashed, you can only see the file list with the title of ‘index /’ without the original blog sites. I don’t know if it is the problem on the server, or that of my campus network, whose instability cause overloading attempts to login that lead to the rejection from the server. Anyway, the system is okay now and I have uploaded the files again.
In fact, we should not, and we have no excuse to complain much about this. Comparing to the other free hosting providers, 000webhost has offered much larger disk space, limitation on traffic, and good stability on servers. Though we are bearing the limitation on the amount of files that can be stored on FTP server for 6000, which is adequate for the personal blogs like mine, as well as the limitation on connections for only two, which is reasonable. However, you will always being warned of exceeding connections, but you can hardly understand why it happen. What you can do is to wait for three minutes, which is called inactivity, according to the guidelines officially. Well, thank goodness that there is no http header restriction, which is quite a terrible problem and it took my friend Bill days to get that done.
PS: The weather these days is getting really chilly, is it the cold that get the server frozen? hah, just a trick.